Chapter 106 : How do i walk again?

The clinic suddenly felt like it was miles away though it was only a few doors down the corridor. My feet wouldn’t walk in time with them self and I tripped a lot, making Edward grab my arm to stop me stumbling into the back of Esmee before he gave me a sad smile and for what felt like the millionth time since I entered apple gate house I felt like a condemned mad destined for the electric chair.

 As we got to the clinic room the same overpowering smell of anti-septic greeted my nostrils and my stomach gave a jolt. I felt sick. Upon the work table next to the doctor’s bench was all the things they were going to need. The most prominent being the long white plastic tube and clamps. This was what was going to be placed up my nose and into my stomach. That was what was going to make me fat. Next to that there was a tube with the words for tube feeding only written upon the side of it. Obviously here was the stuff that was going to make me fat. I stopped dead still my back stiffening. My body going into fight or flight mode. The sad thing was I could do neither. I was outnumbered, one way or another that tube was going to find its way up my nose and into my stomach.

 “Come on honey.” Esmee said coming over to me with her hand extend for me to take “Come and have a seat.”

I took her hand and she led me over to the doctor’s bench. My feet dragged like an out of time metronome. “Take a seat up there darling.” I did what I was told my stomach lurching. I thought I was going to be sick. I should have refused breakfast