Chapter 104 : Everything

“She was everything.” I moaned the picture of her face fogging up my mind. She was smiling at me, my heart broke. “She was everything that I lived for and everything I will never be able to get back. I miss her.” I whined quietly.

 “Is Arabella no longer alive?” Esmee asked in the gentlest tone I had ever heard, both Emmet and herself had put a gentle hand onto my back and where listening intently like what I had to say was the most important thing they had ever heard. Like at that moment. My story was sat at the center of the universe

 “Just over a year ago; we were in a car crash.” I said sniffing away a fresh wave of tears and sadness as I remembered how she looked scrunched up crushed against the weal of her car, her arm hanging the wrong way down by her side, bent back on it’s self from the elbow. Seeing my sadness Esmee shifted herself closer to me and put her arm around my back pulling me in close to her side so her hair tickled the side of my face before she handed me a tissue.

  “I lost far too much that day. She was my sister, and she was the only person that cared and she just went away. I couldn’t help her.” I said desperately gripping the duvet cover below me as the scene flashed before my eyes. “I tried but I could barely move myself. I screamed for her but she wouldn’t look at me. There was blood coming out of her ears and mouth, and she wasn’t moving. She wasn’t breathing. I knew she was dead or she was dying but there was nothing I could do.”  I cried the tears making long tracks down over my cheeks. “There was nothing I could do to save her.”