I had tried to argue with Emmet’s reaction but he was stubborn, even more stubborn then myself and in
the end I backed down as he found a space high up in the car park and slipped
his car in killing the engine.
As we walked down the winding stairs to meet Esmee and Mia at the bottom
something inside me started to panic at the new non secure environment. It was
like someone had come and zapped me with super strong senses making the new
surroundings harsh against every one of them; sending me into a sensory
overload. Unable to stop myself I felt my body become slightly shaky as I gripped
hard onto the grimy hand rail trying to steady everything but even the metal
felt too hash on my hands and I had to withdraw them almost causing my clumsy
over sensitive legs to stumble.
“Are you Ok? You
look a bit shaky my love?” Emmet asked gently
stopping on the stairs ready to grab me if my misbehaving legs caused me to
fall.
“I’m fine,” I lied taking a deep breath and pushing on down the stairs. The smell
of urine and cigarette smoke seemed stupidly intense inside of me from my deep
breath in and I recoiled again slightly trying to stop the gagging I felt
inside my throat from becoming vocal; there was no way I was going to make a
fool of myself when I was in the “real world.” I walked slowly trying to
compensate for what felt like my new hyper sensitive vision, all of a sudden it
was like I could see everything at a hundred times bigger than what they were,
I could see every exposed brick, every tiny piece of chewing gum engrained upon
the floor in a strange patch work; every tiny insignificant flaw to the paint
work.
Finally unable to control my insides any longer and my increasing need
to vomit from all of the new intensity inside me I gagged and stumbled out of
the door with my hand over my mouth trying to find the fresh air, but the
outside only made it worse. The sun hit me with intense light and heat like it
was actually going to set fire to my skin and the cars whizzed past my dazed
eyes at the speed of sound leaving no time to let my eyes adjust to their
scarily harsh colors and shapes. I could hear every one talking at the same
time at war with the amplified birds above not to mention the smell of fast
food and car fumes that infiltrated my nostrils like a bulldozer.
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