Chapter 132: in the arms of a friend

“And I find it kind of funny,

I find it kind of sad,

The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had,

I find it hard to tell you,

I find it hard to take

When things just go in circles it’s a very, very

Mad world”

Mad world

Tears for fears

“Mi, Mia! Stay awake!” Emmet yelled in my ear as my head began to drift off again into nothingness. His voice brought me back to earth and I opened my eyes and smiled up into his face. Other nurses and doctors now also buzzed around me wrapping more and more bandages around my arm as the blood soaked through them but somehow I managed to block them out, they didn’t matter as much as Emmet.  Realizing I had sank back into Emmet I tried to wedge myself up again but my heavy body didn‘t want to move.

“Relax baby.” Emmet said gently as I struggled to move again“I’m not going to hurt you.”

“I am more worried about destroying your clothes, bloods a bitch to get out.” I smiled at him blinking heavily as my eye lids became almost imposable to open.

“Don’t worry about my clothes, they are really old anyway.” Emmet said gently rubbing the top half of my body roughly as I closed my eyes against his chest again.  I didn’t care if I died there and then. In fact it would be perfect if I died. It was a sad dream but the only one I really ever had these days. All I ever wanted to do was die. My life was sad and depressing and never brought me all that much comfort. It would be a dream come true to die warm and in the arms of a friend.