Chapter 182 : Twelve minuite of a nightmare

When I come round Joe was long gone. Like somehow I had just been pulled into one of my nightmares but I also knew that wasn’t the case as the pain I now felt was very real. The cuts on my stomach and breast stung angrily as my blood seeped from the wounds and flowed down over the sides of my body onto the grass underneath and the ripping pain that I always felt after he had his fun with me was also present as well as the feeling of dirtiness that I would never be able to wash off.

 Disorientated I got to my feet and did the zip back up on my jeans before pulling my black oversized hoodie back on over my head to disguise my heavily bleeding wounds. Yes it was summer but I often felt could and now I was happy that I had it, it disguised my dirtiness. I dug into my pocket and took out the mobile phone Emmet had given me with their numbers on. First I glanced at the time to make sure I wasn’t late for them and was surprised when I realized only twelve minutes had passed since they had left me.  It felt like twelve years to me and for a split second I brought up Esmee’s number and was about to push the call button so I could sob down the phone to her, telling her what he had done before the same brick wall came and hit me in the face. There was no way I could tell her in reality what he had done, not even now could I make the words form to tell on my father figure, but I couldn’t just do nothing either because I knew I couldn’t live with what had just happened to me again. I knew the pain and hate inside me would only grow until it was choking and I couldn’t face it, so I had to do something else.   Walking stiffly from the pain I was in, I took the five pound note out of my pocket and started making my way to the pharmacy.