Chapter 168 : My perfect moment

The acid of the orange juice felt like it rubbed away at the lining of my stomach like sand paper and coated my teeth in a sticky substance which I couldn’t get off no matter how much I licked them a reminder that something foreign had been inside my mouth and now sloshed around inside my stomach Chording the shiny surfaces and scratching them. I should have put up more of a fight.

 “Is there a reason why you are making faces at the orange juice Mi?” Esmee asked smiling over at me as I tried to lick the residue off of my teeth. She sipped at her tea easily flicking glances with Emmet who had ordered a hot chocolate, both of them consuming calories that I couldn’t understand, all of them finding it easily. I would have rather have had some water. Tasteless and bland but my best friend and after the weeks of calories that was what I needed. I didn’t know exactly how much but I had been packing on the weight all a step away from perfection.   

 “It’s sticky on my teeth,” I groaned launching one last assault on my teeth with my tongue before sighing and giving up. It would have to stay there.

 “How’s you tee?” I asked trying to change the subject.

 “Taste suspiciously like tee?” Esmee said smiling while closing one eye and looking suspicious into the top of her cup.

 “Ah Colombo!” Emmet exclaimed laughing, almost spitting out his mouth full of tee over the table and waking up Mia fully from her sleep at the same time.

“Emmet.” Esmee groaned as Mia’s bottom lip started to quiver just before the sobbing broke out of her chest.

 My actions to this where instinctual and even though I tried to stop myself there was no force strong enough on earth to keep me on my seat and I bent down to the buggy that was in front of me un clipped the restraints and scooped the crying  toddler up into my arms soothing her as I went.

 “Doggy here.” Mia moaned through her tears as she rubbed her still tired eyes with her hands before snuggling her head into the space under my neck her crying now barely a whimper as she raised her thumb up and put it into her mouth where she made the most adorable sucking noise. She fitted perfectly like my arms had been made for holding onto her and for a split second; the most fleeting of moment nothing mattered. My past was forgotten, the orange juice that stuck to the corners of my teeth didn’t make me feel panicked or dirty. I wanted to be exactly where I was doing what I was doing. I had found my perfect moment. I just wanted to be a mum