Chapter 175 : In the presence of grace

"Well there is a pretty cool clothes shop in front of us,” Esmee pointed out bringing me back from my own badly timed half fantasy half nightmare, “I’m not sure how you feel about getting some new clothes but a new wardrobe always makes me feel better and they are really inexpensive in there as well, I must confess I have been known to get a little carried away myself.”

 "A little carried away!” Emmet scoffed laughing. “I seriously wonder if I will get out alive when I go shopping with you in there Esmee.”

 “Oh stop being so melodramatic you big drama queen, I could be worse.” Esmee scoffed back playfully slapping Emmet in the chest gently staring up into his eyes.  Her eyes sparkled as  they met his gaze and Emmet seemed like he had to physically stop himself from ripping her clothes off there and then and making love to her on the street.

 “You’re stunning.” He mouthed gently to Esmee as she stared up at him unable to pull her eyes away from his, like there was no one else in the entire world but they right then. It was a love higher then I had ever seen before. Not a kind of love that had ever been given inside our house when I was growing up. My love for Arabella was  as big as the one I saw in front of me but even that was different and it was miles apart from the love that mum gave to the men that came and went from the house, briefly visiting her bed and sometimes mine before they walked out of the door. It was a love above sex, above money or commitments, it was blessed and it was divine. It was something that could fix galaxies. It could start or end wars. It was true. It was beautiful to see yet devastating all at the same time, it was all I ever wanted and all I would never get, it was also all I could not live without and as their lips touched together my feet moved as well.

 The town was busy with people moving and cars riding in the middle of the road. It would be easy to get lost in the crowds or slip under one of the cars and that was wear I belonged. I had seen the purest thing I would ever see and it made me dirty all over. I was sixteen today, ten years ago he had banished me from the real world and sent me further into hell then anyone could survive and in the presence of such grace I would die and be set free.