Chapter 45 : Refusal gives controle

 
I sat with my teeth clenched closed on the doctors bench. Horse face was getting angry and bored as we had been in the stuffy little clinic room for coming up two hours. She had tried everything in the book to get me to swallow the chocolate flavoured gunk they called Ensure. Libby was no Emmet though and Sophie beat down every argument she had, though saying that I’m not even sure Emmet could have beaten her today.

“Mi if you don’t drink this I will have to put it down as a refusal.”

“Don’t give up Mia, keep at it now. What does it matter if they put it down on your charts, at least you won’t get any fatter, remember what you looked like. They’re just trying to take you control away but they can’t stop you Mia you’re doing well.”

“Don’t care.” I mumbled shifting myself uneasily on the bench, trying to look anywhere other than the cup of glue that sat in front of me on the table. It would have been easy to reach forwards and down it all in one go. I was hungry and that would make it go away but I couldn’t. I was strong and shiny and new inside. I was going to be perfect.

“Fine, the consequences will be yours alone.” Libby snapped picking up the two plastic cups of ensure and pouring them down the sink. “You can go if you want.” Libby was angry with me but in a way I didn’t care, it felt like I was taking back control. There was one thing Apple gate could not take away from me. They could not make me eat, or so I thought.