Chapter 44 : Mia in the looking glass

I stared into the alien reflection in the long mirror. It wasn’t proper glass of course, that would be too dangerous but in its own way this was as dangerous as well. This could make me physically sick, this could send me into a panic, and this here alone could put me into a suicidal frenzy.

I slipped my top up and traced my fingers over the curves that I hated so much wishing that I could cut them off and make them smooth and beautiful. I wanted to become anything other than what I was.

“Your stomachs to fat suck it in.” Sophie ordered, and of course I obeyed her immediately, yet still the fat rolls remained, sickening, disgusting, revolting, moving as a yellow bubbling lump that floated under the skin.

 “Now you see what you did when you ate? Now you see how disgusting you are. You have to be stronger Mia.  You are weak and weakness is why you are so fat.“ Sophie’s voice was silky smooth, a lover’s cool voice in my ear, the tickling of her breath on my cheek. How could I have ignored such strong words, such good advice when the blubber still stuck to my bones?

“Now you see why you must not eat. I will make you perfect Mia, I will make you happy,” Sophie bragged in her finest seductive tone, a glint of her perfect Ebony hair sweeping over mine in the mirror.

 I traced the outline of my hips with my fingertips pinching the love handles that only I could see, I winced at how the fat looked squeezed in my fingertips, how the bubbles felt pressed together.
“Disgusting, So disgusting." I winced prodding at the flesh.

“Yes isn’t it.” Sophie cooed again. I swore I could almost see the whole of her in the corners of the mirror now, her perfect Barbie doll body dancing silkily around my lumpy carcass.

“Don’t you wish you looked like me?” Sophie cooed in my ear and I nodded pressing back the tears my hideous body caused me as I tried to pull my stomach in again but it refused to get any flatter.

 “Then you have to do exactly what I say and I will make it happen Mia. I will make you thin, and you know thin is perfect. Now for a start no breakfast, no food taste as good as thin feels, so no breakfast.”

 I nodded. Determined