Chapter 35 : Sophie’s my friend… What, did I forget to mention I was crazy?

“Everybody hates you Mia, everyone. He’s paid to like you and everyone else. You mean no more to him then his television or laptop. No one could ever like you Mia. Don’t be so stupid. You’re a bad person. Who would ever want to be with you? So fat and stupid."

I didn’t know whether to shout or cry harder as the voice in my head who had introduced her self to me as Sophie a good few years ago refused to leave me alone. Sophie was powerful and perfect. She was smooth and slim. The right height and the right hair. She floated with grace through the life I stumbled through and she told me that she loved me. She said she was my friend and maybe foolishly I believed her, however I couldn’t see anyone else lining up to spend their time with me. Of course then there was Emmet. Emmet seemed a little different. So naturally, Sophie hated him.

“There’s only me Mia. I am the only one that understands you. You don’t need him. They don’t care about you. I’m just trying to make you thin and pretty. I’m just trying to make it better for you honey. I have always looked after you before haven’t I?”

I buried my head into my hands and pressed my hands over my ears, not that it would help. I didn’t really hear her with my ears. It was worse then that. She was actually inside my head delivering her messages right into the place were it would hurt the most.

“Is there anything that I can do to help you Mi?” Emmet asked gently scooting his body up slightly closer to mine. I shook my head. Hearing voices was not something you just admitted to. They already saw me as crazy. They didn’t need any fuel for their fire, not if I wanted to get out of there at any point in my life