Chapter 33 : (Ensure)ing i get what i need

Mi

Emmet had taken me out of the dinning room and further down the corridor until he stopped outside a door with the word “clinic” Written on it in black bold letters. Emmet still had hold of my hand as he swiped his card key and tapped in a code to open the door. For obvious reasons this room had added security.

“Come on in sweet-pee,” he said gently leading me into the clinic. “Have a seat up there for me.” He pointed to the Doctors bench and I perched on the end not having the nerve to even look at Emmet’s face. I had no idea where his patients come from.

The room looked like any normal hospital room. A complete change to the rest of the decor I had so far experienced in apple gate. The room was white with a sink and shiny white cabinets. There was also a desk a tall white fridge that grumbled almost soothingly and then there was the doctors bench (Trolley) I was sat on.

“There you go.” Emmet said handing me a kidney shaped cardboard dish from a mountain of them pilled on one of the counters before going over and opening the window. It opened fully which was a surprise as all the others I had been near inside this strange place didn’t. The breeze was welcome against my hot face and the fresh air helped clear out the clinical smell too, easing the knot inside of me.

“Try and calm your self down Mi, You did well at dinner now you just have to keep the food down.” Emmet said gently, but my body in it’s normal act of defiance retched again and with a click in the back of my throat vomit pooled out into the bowl, rejecting the foods that had altered it’s perfect state of clean.

Emmet like doctor Jordan had in hospital pulled my hair out of the dish. I was sick once again as Emmet continued to rub my back gently like he was trying to comfort a toddler with a stomach bug, not a drama queen with an aversion to food.

“Thin is amazing, thin Is a higher state, no one can hurt you when your thin, thin is untouchable.”
“You done?” He asked after a while and I nodded. Emmet took the dish away from me in now gloved hands and gave me a tissue. I wiped my mouth and my streaming eyes, but although I was in pain and my eyes streamed A wave of calm had come to settle upon me. I was empty, Just the way I liked it. The voice in my head had been calmed and now she whispered into my ear that I was now Ok. A small smile stretched across my face. I had got through another meal with not one single calorie making me fat. My games where still working. Or so I thought.

“What do you like Mi? strawberry, chocolate, Asparagus?” Emmet’s face grimaced at the thought of the last one. I just looked confused not sure what he was on about. I shrugged, I hated them all equally. I would rather have starved.

“I heard the chocolate is the best.” He said more to himself then to me before going to the purring fridge in the corner of the room and took out two cans of something. He went about measuring out the liquid In a measuring container. When he got the measurements exactly right he poured the mixture of what looked like brown glop into two plastic cups. I stared not sure what he was doing until he put them both onto the counter next to me and the realisation hit me like a ton of bricks. I was going to have to drink this stuff.

“Your going to have to drink that for me Mi.” Emmet confirmed sympathetically.

“What is it? I asked

“It’s called Ensure. It’s a calorie boosting drink. Because your on the build up menu whatever you don’t eat calorie wise has to be made up for with this.”

I swallowed hard, the war in my head starting again.