Chapter 43 : Siren call

 As the light behind my curtain become more intense, so did the ridicules summer heat. The thick air pressed down on my chest making it impossible to move even if I wanted to. Still curled up in my ball I continued to stare at the carpet next to my bed, too tired to move, my brain still far to alert to sleep. I remained stuck in the nothingness that had surrounded me all night and it didn’t feel all that nice.

 The tears stung my eyes again as my mind wondered to everything I didn’t want to remember. Everything in my life, every tear and every smile had done nothing but to lead me to this place in this room. I stifled the pain full sob in my pillow.

 I closed my eyes again as another member of staff from the early shift opened my door. Faking sleep was better than the introductions. It felt like they all wanted a piece of the newest crazy person.

 “Morning Mi Mi, Time to get your sleepy head out of bed!” My eyes darted open at the sound of another nickname. what the hell was wrong with Mi? I grimaced as she waltzed past me and pulled the curtains apart allowing the full force of the sunlight and heat in. My whole body recoiled in rejection of this but the new woman just laughed, throwing her head back like a horse.

 “Your Mi, I’m Libby.”  Libby’s face was in a toothy grin. In fact her teeth looked too big for her face. She indeed had a horse like quality about her. I stifled a laugh under a cough and mumbled something about hay fever under my breath.

 “Your new here” what was it with her stating the obvious. “It’ s Saturday, which means there are no groups today so people will get up when they want, I have been told that you on the other hand are on the buildup menu which means breakfast with me.” Libby stuck out her chest proudly and pointed to herself. By this time I was wondering if I could rip her throat out with my bare teeth before she had time to reach her alarm. The odds weren’t’t good so I just sighed and pulled my heavy sleep depraved body off of my bed, trying not to stumble as the black dots exploded over my vision.

 “Oh, that was easy.” She said surprised for a second “Good job, the bathroom is just down the corridor the first one on your left after love. You might want to go and  get washed up, you still got about ten minutes yet.” I was confused for a minute but decided she must be referring to a bed room so I grabbed my toiletry bag that Annie packed for me and set off for the bathroom.

 The bathroom was reasonably large with all you would expect to find in there if not a little more safer for your suicide intent teenager. No hoses for the shower, no toilet clearer by the loo, no bleach, no sharp edges. To someone like me in fact it was very disappointing. Of course there was something that caught my attention though. It called to me like the sweetest melody. The most stunning sent. The stunning figure in a crowd and I couldn’t resist it long before as so many times before it took me. It was he full length mirror, a soft shimmer in the sunlight.