Chapter 4 : Blue's and to's

I was moved out of the house and into the back of the ambulance, which was now moving slowly down the road. Annie was too upset on the phone to Maggie trying to work out how it had happened and Paul was too angry to join me in the ambulance. I hated my self.

“You’re sure you can’t remember how many you took Mi, not even roughly? Rachel asked me. She was now fusing about with various monitors and putting things through the drip in the back of my hand. She stared intently at the screen. “Here.” She pulled the tubes out of my nose and put a mask over my face. “It’s just oxygen but it will make you feel better, the masks work better then the tubes. Just if you’re going to be sick take it off Ok? So how many tablets then?”

“I Don’t know, lots”
“Well roughly, 10, 20, 50,100,0ver 100?”


“Bout 100.” I lied. There had been more then that in those packets, a lot more, at least 300, I had been saving but She didn’t need to know that and with out hesitation she scribbled the lie down on the back of her glove. A lie that could have killed me.

“Why?” I closed my eyes. I knew this was coming and I had no intention of answering it. No mater how much I protested that I was evil and stupid and should be allowed to die there was no way any one was ever going to agree with me. This was their job you see, to be the first response. They were the ones who could save a life and to them, I was just a little kid who had a hard start and was a bit confused. I was just another one that they had to save. All be it this time it was from themselves.

“Damn it” Rachel shouted springing to her feet as a monitor beeped and my body grew heavy with sleep. The ambulance started spinning around as I felt her throw my wrist back into the air again and squeeze hard. A puddle had been forming on the floor of the ambulance. The monitor beeped more persistently and my vision blurred over again. My whole body shook, but I was so hot.

“All right back there Rach?”
“I think it might be time for some blues and two’s.” She called back lowering the trolley so it was flat with my feet in the air before pumping a different medicine though the drip in the back of my hand.

“Right oh.” A piercing screech filled my head and blue flashes shot through my eyes as the darkness embraced me.