Chapter 231 : Unit bound

A few hours later after the tail end of the sedatives left my body and I kept down a rather soggy hospital sandwich an older fairly ugly looking doctor did a few random test and let me leave the hospital giving me a follow up appointment in the fracture clinic for a months’ time and a box of Codeine which was entrusted to Esmee.

 Outside the A&E the remaining daylight was ebbing away into the blackness and with it the heat that still remained reluctantly giving away into the cold making my body shiver.

 “I should of picked up your coat,” Esmee said catching my shiver out the corner of her eye as we started walking towards the car park closest to the A&E. “it’s getting chillier in the evenings,” Esmee said shivering too pulling her arms in close around her chest before staring up into the sky and smiling. It appeared to her the world could be beautiful, that she saw something more when she looked up into the sky other than blackness. I had no idea how she did it. How she had turned her life from overdoses to appreciation of night.

 “Hay here’s the old girl,” Esmee said after we reached the car, patting the boot of her Honda Jazz. “She does me well bless her,” she smiled, “and she has a bloody good heating system which I am pleased about.” She laughed, clicking the door open with the remote and letting us both inside of the car.

 “It will warm up soon” Esmee confirmed rubbing the top of her arms roughly after turning on the engine and twisting the knob for the heat up to the red. “Well let’s get you back to the unit shall we?” She pulled out of the parking space carefully and headed out to the main entrance to bounce me back to the unit again.  My head protested as well as my heart. I knew the roads between the gate and the general hospital too well. After all the time I spent yo-yoing back and forth I could describe them all with such detail but they would never feel right. My soul called to me from the right, from the tiny strip of light that hadn’t yet disappeared yet. The light wouldn’t save me from anything. I was already too lost but it did feel nice to know that it was still there, visible to me even if it wasn’t achievable.

 “Don’t take me back there again.” I whispered more to myself then to Esmee as my body ached in its silent protest “Please don’t make me go back there.”