Chapter 206 : Their invincible spark

 

Mi

 

Somewhere in the background I could hear a low deep beeping that pressed into the side of my head. My body was too heavy to move still, even my eye lids felt like ten ton weights making them almost impossible to open however the waving nausea had settled somewhat and at that very moment the angry twisting pain that had rippled through me making it feel like someone was putting me through a vice was now nothing more than a mildly annoying tummy ach.

 

As my other senses come more alert I found my lack of visual annoying and wrestled my eyes open to reveal the spinning interior of a skylight side ward. The room was painted in exactly the same pink as Dream back at apple gate house however this room had scarecrow curtains up to the windows and there was also a big cheery looking sun with a face painted into it looking at me on the wall opposite my bed. I Gathered that it was meant to be cute an added little touch of effort of the children’s behalf. It seemed stupid when you thought about it though. “Hay-ho sorry little Beth you may have terminal cancer at the grand old age of just six but at least there is a sun with a face on it in your room.”  

 

“Good morning honey.” I head Emmet say gently somewhere to the right of me at which I turned my head but wished I didn’t as it felt like someone had stabbed a letter opener into my head as I did it. “If anyone asks I’m not doing this,” Emmet said smiling as he adjusted the cannula in the back of my hand. “I think you may have had a bad dream or something; you dislodged it when you were sleeping and as I could sort it out without getting one of the already overworked ward nurses I thought I would,” He said gently as he started wrapping a light bandage around my hand to keep it in place.

“How is your pain now?”

 

Everything hurt from top to toe still but it wasn’t like the agony that I had felt before, just a dull ach of poison fighting with cure to see who the ultimate victor would be in the end; life fighting with death.

 

“The general for what it would be after you took too many tablets.”

 

“I would imagine you feel like shit then to put it bluntly, however you do look in less pain then you did back in A&E.”

 

“A lot less,” I agreed.

 

“Oh Mi why did you do it and out of all things why take the ibuprofen? You know two hundred Paracetamol would be enough to kill you and you also know the ibuprofen won’t normally do any lasting damage. It just causes chronic pain, sickness and seizures, why did you want to cause yourself so much pain?”  Emmet sighed his whole body deflating as he talked.

 

It was true I had known what the ibuprofen was going to do but I hadn’t remembered exactly how painful it could have been and I had almost forgotten what it was like to throw up every few seconds and at the time of taking them I had wanted to punish…him and as I was unable to throw a few hundred Ibuprofen down his throat, mine seemed like the second best idea.

 

“You have never cut on your breasts before either Mi, and never as bad as that on your tummy.” Emmet moaned his voice full of sadness before he turned away to look distantly at the wall, “Mi did you deceive both of us? I mean where you not having a good time out, did you have it planned to hurt yourself all the time?  I mean was there something we could have done to prevent it? Emmet asked his face disappointed with me and himself, like he expected more from me, and there it was, crystal clear now, Jo was doing it all over again; destroying everything from inside me for his few minutes of twisted fun, but now there was also something different. There was the invincible spark that was inside me that Emmet and Esmee put there and even though it was only little, it now   fought back making the words tumble from my mouth.

 

“When you left me, he found me. When he found me… He raped me.”